How do you go from there to here. Distance uncertainty and that old familiar feeling of loss. I feel like I should say something do something like I’m passively sitting by while it slips away. I’ve made mistakes but I never lied about how I felt or what you meant. I never imagined that I would meet someone else that would make me feel like this. I never meant to harm you it just all got so fucked up and complicated. But my intentions and feelings never were. And then to hear you say that there is one thing I could do to get you back and knowing what that means to me I would do it. I would do it just for the chance to make it work…I love you and I miss you so damn much. You haven’t lost me and I still haven’t gone anywhere and never was going to…..but what am I suppose to do about all of this? Is life a romantic movie where I’m suppose to chase after you, to relentlessly pursue you so that I don’t let slip away what I found in you and with you. Or just leave it to chance and good luck that I may one day be able to realize that feeling once again, to wake up nestled in your back with our hair tangled together having barely slept. I am so completely paralyzed by indecision. All I know is that I miss you, I want you back. I want you to want to be back
There’s a feeling I get when I look to the west,
And my spirit is crying for leaving.
In my thoughts I have seen rings of smoke through the trees,
And the voices of those who stand looking.
Ooh, it makes me wonder,
Ooh, it really makes me wonder.
And it’s whispered that soon, if we all call the tune,
Then the piper will lead us to reason.
And a new day will dawn for those who stand long,
And the forests will echo with laughter.
If there’s a bustle in your hedgerow, don’t be alarmed now,
It’s just a spring clean for the May queen.
Yes, there are two paths you can go by, but in the long run
There’s still time to change the road you’re on.
And it makes me wonder.
I can truly say that today…
…I wanna watch the world burn. …
I was doing so fucking good again and now here I sit in birmi alafuckingbama. Just mulling over all of the fucking catastrophes of the last year. There are one or two that I don’t regret at all I would reignite the same flame a hundred times over I don’t care how many times it burnt me.
Passing through that little town and wondering where the hell do these people eat? Lol
Now I can’t seem to put together two good days in a row and I can’t say that I really want to be sober most days. Wtf happened to me? Fuck man.
Swimming through the city streets
My soul slipped through the cracked concrete
I’ve only a sliver of recognition
Of these strange times
And a worsening condition.
Familiarize yourself as fast as necessary
To avoid confusion and indecision
In order that you can feel no more
Just follow the pre existing incision
We’ve all seen the man at the liquor store begging for your change……..
I’ve lived so many lives. Different masks and faces trading places with each of my former selves. The cycles of life is what I’ve come to call them. The seasons of the spirit. It happens around the same time each yr. Winter sends me to an inverted retrospective type place and I implode only to find myself attempting to sprout once again like a seedling in the spring seeing that one little ray of light popping through the cracks. I hope this is my last bloom
Into the shallows, with hearts of gold
No cards to play nor hands to fold
Seemingly without discernment
For the collateral damage
Buying into the story
That this I can manage
I troll these streets with the best of intentions
No where in life without direction
Wanting soo bad to care again
Just never getting that honorable mention
Of wasted yrs and stories yet finished
I know to well how this story ends
For so long now the spirit has weakened
My chances of a comeback they slowly diminish.
Ohhh my old friend a comfortable cold
Never have u left me
Youve no where to go
So side by side and hand in hand
To the gallows we go
Who came up with the comparison ” if thrre frogs on a log decide to jump off, how many frogs are left , 3 because they just made a decision.”
They make this comparison in the thought that there is not much action taken in the third step contrary to that believe to decide is an action is a verb look it up people third step get discount at all too often you’re not doing anything there’s no action you just made a decision the action starts after we’re done for not true the action should have started with your decision. I think a lot of people get misled in this program about what’s real and what’s fake oh this is my favorite stuff that is my favorite step this is the most important its not a step it’s a process. End rant